Posted by NikkiT2 on January 17, 2006, at 16:39:58
Forget everything I have ever said.. Its not wortyh it. How ever much you think you've beaten it, its all a load of cr*p.
A soon as you hit that wall. BAM. All the old behaviours come back, and instead of fighting the slope like you used to, you just slip quicker.
All those friends I have sat up with, throught he night, talking them through a crisis. All the friends I have changed plans for, put my problems aside for.
Where are they now? Well, not interested in me, thats for sure. And who can blame them.
I break down and tell my husband. He rolls his eyes and tell me I'm pathetic, I bring it on myself, that I'm just lazy and using it as an excuse not to go to work. He tells me if I want to do it, just go ahead. He doesn't care.
I tell my friend. She tells me to pull myself together. Apparently all will be OK if I rub between my eye brows. Don't make me laugh.
There is no point. None at all.
Life never really changes. Its tricks you for a while. But it never changes.