Posted by alesta on May 13, 2005, at 21:52:03
In reply to Re: No hope for me, posted by Shy_Girl on May 13, 2005, at 20:57:29
hi jenny,
for the first time in my entire time posting on this site i wonder if i jumped the gun giving advice. i usually deliberate and look at all possible angles in more detail..i guess b/c this topic is so personal to me...
i'm remembering what worked for me in a minimum amount of time (most people with BPD take a lot longer to recover than i did, possibly). but i would like to see if other options would help you besides what i've suggested..my apologies for thinking my way is the only way...a momentary lapse of reason will get you every time..:) (borrowed that phrase from pink floyd..they are the bomb..)
so lemme ask you....are you not able to feel any pleasure outside of people? i'm referring to your quotes below..
> Arrrgh...I feel like I need something, anything...give me a freaking placebo for goodness sake!
> I think I need to learn to soothe myself more than anything. I'm anxious from thinking about not being able to control or tolerate my emotions. Maybe I can tolerate them, I don't know. My pdoc seemed to think I was going to be all right.
perhaps it would be best to 'soothe yourself' first before you attempt to find your identity. when you said "soothe yourself", my first thought was that your dopamine levels might be really low...i know when i was taking an SSRI, the lowered dopamine levels had me just crawling the walls..i wanted to soothe myself so bad..it was horrible. and i looked to people as my only diversion, since i couldn't enjoy anything solitary, as i felt no pleasure from anything. so this could be key for you.:)
sorry this post is unorganized..but just wanted to share my thoughts with you. i think you would probably benefit from at least the addition of dopamine. have you tried an MAOI, e.g. parnate or nardil? parnate, for instance, will increase dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin. this would be great, b/c you may have a shortage in those other neurotransmitters as well. you could try it. you'd have a small list of foods to avoid, but it would be well worth it if it worked.
i think mental health professionals' points of view on how to handle BPD vary greatly. so our speculation is very founded here...
anyway, have a great night. i hope you find some peace.
take care,
amy
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