Posted by alesta on May 13, 2005, at 17:44:01
In reply to No hope for me, posted by Shy_Girl on May 13, 2005, at 15:53:25
hi jenny :)no, jen, your condition is not of your own making..one cannot simply choose to become an individual with BPD..and it is not hopeless..it just feels that way to you right now.
<Going to the walk-in-clinic was a bust...no one knows what to do for me. There is nothing anyone can do for me. I guess I'll just have to take my chances...if I live, I live, if I don't, I just don't. I cannot predict the future, but if the pattern holds true, I'm afraid I won't be here much longer. "Go to the hospital if I feel suicidal"....ya right, like I'll have the guts and mindset to do that when I'm suicidal...geez, what do people think?
i understand what you're saying..i feel the same way..if i desire to kill myself, why would i go somewhere that is going to interfere with my doing that..it doesn't make sense to me either..i guess it might help some ppl who feel pulled in different directions mentally on that issue or something..
< I wished for something impossible...a pill to stop my suicidal urges, but none exists. Oh well, I hope I have some fun times before I die.
no, i don't think there is a pill, although i could be wrong..never know. (i am pretty sure this is purely psychological.) this will pass...can you set aside 30 minutes every day to just be alone with yourself (and not focus on other people) in addition to therapy, if you choose to continue that route? i wonder if therapy might not be a diversion to the patient from focusing on self...i feel that you really need to at least adjunct therapy with some alone time every day...
i hope you feel better. you and me still gotta get some of them virtual polar bears, extra chocolate.:-) mmmm..that sounds GOOD!!
{{{{{{{{{jenny}}}}}}}}}}}
take care,:)
amy
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