Posted by mair on January 28, 2005, at 21:29:44
In reply to Re: People's perception of themselves-musing again » saw, posted by Angel Girl on January 28, 2005, at 14:51:37
I gained alot of weight a couple of years ago when I added amitriptyline to what I was already taking. I tolerated it because it did make a difference, but it was so discouraging to feel so heavy and have to keep buying new clothes. I think I had always liked the fact that even if the rest of my life was a disaster, at least I didn't have to worry about my weight, so gaining alot of weight was tough for me to accept. Revulsion would sort of come at me in waves, so I, too, avoid the mirror. I sometimes get really down on myself for eating something fattening - weight has become so much more of an issue for me than it ever was. But I can't complain to other people because everyone says I hide it well and other people in my family are so much heavier. Last summer I dropped the amitriptyline dose way down and this fall I went off it altogher, mostly to try another drug which hopefully wouldn't have the same side effects. Well I felt really sick on this other drug and promptly lost about 8 pounds. Now I don't know what to do. I'm still too heavy but I feel better at least for not being so bloated. On the other hand, my mental state isn't great and I know it would probably help if I started up with a new drug my pdoc wants to try. I'm afraid I'll just give up on it if I start feeling bloated and fat again.
These are crummy choices - fat and ugly and feeling bloated, but at least more mentally stable or better body image but totally depressed otherwise.
Mair
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