Posted by Fallen4MyT on January 13, 2005, at 18:35:31
In reply to Re: What's so wrong with me? **possible trigger** » Fallen4MyT, posted by Angel Girl on January 13, 2005, at 12:03:21
:*( I know it hurts thats a fact that cannot be denied...I honestly do not know what to tell you to do with that pain cause I bet it takes a lot of time and leaves prints of hurt on ones heart....I have not and will not run for the hills. People need to remember life is not always about them and you posted a problem and started a thread I respect that and know youre hurting on that so you will not see me jumping off subject. I have had friends I hung with go away cause of my issues I still miss them and its been years and man we DID have a lotta fun...but I cannot fix that or us or them to go back to that...what I do and it may not be the best thing but I hold my now friends close and always keep an eye out for new ones not in fear or to replaces these freinds if I lose them but just to have....making clear I will always be ME and me includes some of my daffy stuff. Time is sadly what I think you may need and it will never bring them and those times back...
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> I understand and agree with what you're saying but the fact is, it still hurts. It hurts like HELL and I miss them. We used to have such fun times once upon a time.
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> BTW, thanks for replying my thread. It looks like since I opened up and revealed things, that I have scared everybody off. That makes me very sad because it took a lot for me to do that. It's not easy to reveal your bad stuff to other people and then when you do, everybody heads for the hills. That hurts.
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> > Friends should BUT also friend sadly have limits and boundaries even issues that make it hard for them to deal with someone elses issues so it may be a self preservation issue. For example I still care about a friend of mine but cannot be around her as she triggers things in me that leaves bad feelings and thoughts that would be detrimental to MY health...so I HAD to cut her loose. Its not her fault or even mine..we are like oil and water. Still I want the best for her and if roles were reversed would want her to cut herself off from me if I ( not meaning to) messed with her emotional well being. Friends want the best for freind and sometimes thats a lot of space and not to be friends that stay in touch odd as that sounds. Its like a ex drunk and a drunk....they may care but need to stay away.
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> > >>>All in all, the bottom line is I scared the hell out of them and they had reached their limit. I realize that there is only so much that people can take but doesn't a *true* friend stand by you when the going gets rough, or are friends just for the good times? I guess I overstayed my welcome. I just find it hard giving the end result and knowing how things used to be before I realized I was BP. :( >>
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