Posted by Jai Narayan on January 9, 2005, at 7:45:26
In reply to Re: Atticus you sound peppy....all better? :) Ja* » Jai Narayan, posted by Atticus on January 8, 2005, at 0:50:52
I'm glad you don't have to hide anymore.
this may allow you to be more yourself than ever before at work. A part of yourself can relax and see who gravitates to you and accepts your condition.When my mom would have breakdowns it was a mind f*** for me as a child to remain silent.
Society and my family joined in an emotional and verbal clampdown.
Way too many secrets.
Way too much shame.
Then my mother would do something publicly that was very unusual...
(kneeling in the middle of an intersection of our neighborhood's busy streets, she was having a personal moment with god).
Well what could we do but pretend we were okay...
my world was filled with the fantasy life of having a typical childhood.
My imaginary play friends were sanity and normalcy.
I was sinking inside to the deeper reaches of great sadness.
My life turned many shades of blue.
I felt like the ice queen’s servant.
Mom being the queen.So having a breath of fresh air in your life and the dark secret revealed can free the feral cat.
The tethered beast can roam your inner land.
light and dark can mingle and create beautiful shades of gray.
You can live in this middle ground more and more.
Does this sound like reality?
I enjoyed envisioning and writing this reality/fantasy.my best to you Atticus.
Ja*
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