Posted by Angel Girl on December 15, 2004, at 2:32:45
In reply to Re: Happy F'ng Birthday To Me!!! » Angel Girl, posted by alesta on December 11, 2004, at 5:34:43
Thanks everybody for your kind and sweet, cheering words. I'm ok now but I was still bummed the day after my birthday. I wasn't saying that my son doesn't love me just because he forgot my birthday. It's far more complicated than that and a long story. I have felt this way for a very long time, although he tells me it's not true. But when he forgot my birthday, that just fed into my belief system confirming my feelings.
BTW, would someone who *claims* to love you but never shows it (and forgets your birthday to boot) not be concerned and try to do what they can to change your beliefs? He doesn't. A lot of our phone calls ends up with him hanging up on me. Lately he's been a real *trigger* for me.
I guess I know what I'm talking about in therapy this week. In fact, I was soooooo upset that my sister, who couldn't deny anything I said to her was fact about my son, thinks I need to tell my pdoc at this week's appt that my meds aren't working. Dang, and what was your first clue? :/ We've been playing with meds since 2001 and still haven't found the right ones. :(
Anyway, I just wanted to thank y'all for wishing me a happy birthday and trying to cheer me up.
Oh, and btw, he remembered my Mom's birthday yesterday. I'm glad for her.
A very somber and numb AG
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