Posted by partlycloudy on December 7, 2004, at 12:03:25
In reply to I don't want to feel like this forever, posted by tampagirl70 on December 7, 2004, at 11:35:57
I've been struggling with these anxiety issues, too. I've had, by my accounts, a bad year personally. I'm better, then I'm not so good, then I have a rotten couple of days and I wonder when will it end? Why is it so hard to accept the ebb and flow of our emotions instead of just letting them happen?
I just wanted to let you know you're not alone, tpagirl. I'm trying not to doubt the good days but to accept them, and I'm trying not to anticipate how I'll feel tomorrow. This is that Sunday night syndrome that many of us feel.
For some, it's realizing that Monday morning we have to go back to the drudgery of our work week. For some, it's getting to Sunday night and realizing we didn't do all we wanted to during the weekend (like decorate for Christmas), we beat ourselves up over it.
Everyone tells me to take it easy (sound familiar?). I think it's a combination of therapy helping to untangle all the knots we carry in our heads, finding that elusive balance of medication to alow us to apply ourselves effectively to therapy, and for me, the biggest issue is self acceptance.
When I'm in the thick of it: anxious, upset, frustrated, frozen, and unhappy, I cannot see that things are better than they were. I post here, and my babble friends say to me - of course you're better! You're not (drinking) (gobbling xanax) (crying for hours on end) (take your pick!) like you were when you started, or even a few weeks ago.
BTW did you manage to find a therapist you like? I just started with a new one and I was trying to think of a good excuse not to show up for my appointment today, scared of my own shadow. But (sigh), I'll go, of course. It's only my own head I'm ascared of anyhow.
take good care,
pc, across the bay
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