Posted by partlycloudy on December 7, 2004, at 15:04:35
In reply to Re: I don't want to feel like this forever, posted by tampagirl70 on December 7, 2004, at 13:06:20
OMG get this, I showed up for the appointment - and I got the date completely wrong. Now I can get all worked for Thursday, instead - I'm on top of it, believe me.
I've been married 2 and a half years to a very very understanding man who started out saying that he was way more messed up than I am, but he doesn't say that anymore. I have to say that my anxiety really stumps him - you can't see what's happening to me, unless I do that pale, sweating thing. So he gets frustrated with me, but I try to give him as much warning as possible. "I'm having a bad day." "I'm having a really bad day." "Waahhhh!!!" you know. For example, he were going to go to the movies last Sunday. Before we went we went to a very bad crafts fair (too many people), then a nice little shop. Then a motorcycle charity ride thing went past - 2,000 bikes for a toy collection event? - and of course we couldn't leave the store because of all these motorcycles screaming past us. I lost it completely - trapped in a cramped store, unable to get home (for a whole 20 m inutes at least!!), certain that we'd have some life threatening disaster that due to the traffic would mean certain death. So we finally leave. I'm shaking and sweating and hanging on to the seat belt in the car. "I can't go to the movie," I mumbled into the seat belt. Did not go over well, but he immediately said - "we'll just get it on DVD." Now THAT'S a wonderful husband :)
I'm on sick leave from work as I couldn't stop crying and screamed at a vice president when he called on the phone back in October. I go back on the 20th and just hope I can act calm and collected for 40 hours a week again.
Nice to know you!
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