Posted by Cass on December 5, 2004, at 22:30:25
In reply to Re: almost ready to end life, posted by jerrympls on December 5, 2004, at 19:54:10
I'm sad that you feel alienated. I think you need a community, jerry. You certainly have one here at PB, but I think you need an IRL community as well. Are there any groups that fit your interests or needs? A lot of people find a community in 12 step programs. There is so much love and unconditional acceptance in those groups. It really changes people's lives. Are there any churches that suit your religious/spiritual convictions? There's another place to make meaningful relationships and receive support. I know from personal experience that the more I live my own personal convictions, the more content I am. Not that life becomes perfect, but becoming truer to myself is very energizing.
You may be making a difference in someone's life unknowingly. For example, if most of the people in your office are passive-aggressive, there may be people who quietly appreciate the fact that you are not. You may not realize how much some people respect you.
Like I said, many of us have felt the way you do. Yet many of our lives are better today. I've been close to suicide many times in the past, but my life today is very happy. I love, and I feel loved.
Do you exercise at all. Does it make you feel any better to take walks? Is there a nice park anywhere near you? Sometimes it's amazing what a difference a walk will make.
Keep posting.
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