Posted by Soulnik on November 19, 2004, at 1:49:39
In reply to Re: Sleeping and Tired and Hating Myself » Soulnik, posted by MKB on November 17, 2004, at 23:36:26
Thanks for your feedback and support. I get so desperate at times.
I did check with pdoc and he thinks the AD is responsible for some of the drowsiness so we're changing the time of day that I take the medication.
Today I actually left the house and saw a friend who told me about a job lead. That was good though today I don't feel very capable of working. Baby steps, I guess.
I wish there was some faster way. It's hard not to think about what I "should" and "could" be doing. I am afraid I am missing out and losing so much. But as realistic as I am about the fact that this IS an illness, I am just not willing to believe that I REALLY have to live with it EVERYDAY. It seems like too much. I suppose that's contradictory but it's just so absurd, isn't? That my mind could be so broken when the rest of me is well. That it could totally immobilize me or keep me awake for days. Absurd.
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