Posted by octopusprime on November 15, 2004, at 23:10:50
In reply to Re: update: home from work, lasted an hour TRIGGER » octopusprime, posted by jlynne on November 15, 2004, at 22:03:35
so after i sat at home, collecting my thoughts, drinking a cup of tea, i decided to go out for a grilled sandwich (spicy capicollo and havarti on a half focacia, heavy on the artichokes, eggplant, olives, and peppers!) and chocolate bar (imported italian, hazelnut flavour). mmm lunch. walked back to work (5 km).
the office manager decided not to show the emails to anybody. i sent the emails to my boss. my boss came to talk to me, said he was sorry. i started crying. he said "is there anything i can do?" ... in my head i want mr. suicide joke fired. in practice i just sort of whimpered and shook my head. my friendly coworker pointed out to me that in a real company mr. suicide joke would have been escorted out of the building and had his stuff couriered to him. i don't think my boss (who is mr. suicide joke's boss) even talked to him. so the management isn't managing, it's not much of a surprise to me. that fact was what had me looking for another job before this entire incident happened.
anyway all of my coworkers were very concerned about me in that warm, fuzzy, we care kind of way. it was kinda nice but i'm not used to all this attention (having never burst out crying at my desk before in my entire life).
mr suicide joke himself was mercifully quiet all afternoon. i studiously avoided eye contact with him whenever i passed him in the corridor (it is a VERY small office). i think he knows he's in trouble now.
you guys are right, he probably does just need help. but i don't know how to talk to my boss about it. maybe in a few days i will be able to look at it rationally. but part of me doesn't care. part of me says prep carefully for the job interview on friday and concentrate on getting the hell out of that office. but the nice coworkers don't want me to go. and i like the nice coworkers. maybe i can just bring them with me to a new job.
thanks so much ... between you guys and my nice coworkers, i am feeling way less nuts. it helps to know that other people think he is also being out of line.
it is so sad because four days ago if he had invited me for a beer, i wouldn't have blinked an eye. now it is all over. sad to lose a social relationship. worse to lose it over something like this. i feel like i am being rash, in a week or two this whole incident will look different. but i don't know. and i won't be able to ignore him forever in a room that small ...
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