Posted by Jai Narayan on September 12, 2004, at 8:33:07
In reply to Re: Anyone here lost a child and/or spouse? » Jai Narayan, posted by jay on September 11, 2004, at 20:39:36
Well, Jay I'm so glad you could share something of this sadness you have endured.
Sudden loss is so difficult for the mind to accept and understand.
Our brains just don't get it.
I know after my dad died I kept looking for him.
His death was expected, he was 91 and ailing.
I just couldn't get over it. I kept thinking that he would be back....
not in a metaphysical way either...
the man I knew couldn't just disappear.
He was in my life forever and I could not comprehend death and it's finality. I have some of his ashes.
This life is such a mystery and then death comes along and I just shake my head. I still don't get it.
Where can our love go?
The love I held in my being for my dad?
I am getting old myself and I will be seeing more death around me. I know I have to get some way of handling death.
Maybe a spiritual path.
Something.
Or I will lose my mind with the grief.So you see Jay, you are not alone in this struggle.
I hold you gently in my mind on this Sunday morning.
poster:Jai Narayan
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