Posted by antigua on August 24, 2004, at 0:15:25
In reply to I'm not OK..., posted by daisym on August 20, 2004, at 21:58:06
Oh Daisy, that's a really tough situation. I hope you're home now. Sometimes I go back to visit the house where the abuse happened and I simply stare it, shaking my head and questioning how on earth something so painful could have occurred in such a pretty house. I see the perfect picture but ignore the reality, I guess. I don't go very much anymore (I can usually stop there when I'm traveling northward) because the disconnect is too much for me. It makes me believe that nothing happened, it's all made up, and that can be dangerous.
I'm impressed w/how you're handling your father. My father is dead, and I really didn't know very much about what happened before he died (well, that's not true, I knew some of it, but I never had attached significance to it.) Even so, although he was a different man in his later years I still would feel that disconnect between the man in front of me and the man who would do certain things to me. I truly believed he was two different people: the good father and the bad father.
You've held up well. It's tough to have to go back there while you're struggling through figuring everything out. Your T will be back soon? I hope so.
best,
antigua
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