Posted by karlak13 on August 21, 2004, at 20:32:32
In reply to Re: Very triggering memories and questions-jenstar, posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 19, 2004, at 13:48:13
I had become a sex addict and went into therapy to try to figure out what was wrong with me and how to stop my behaviours and acting out. Especially since I was married and loved my husband and I hated how my acting out hurt him so deeply. the t said it sounded like I had been sexually abused. My first response was like no way. Then I was like, who? Then I started going through babysitters. No. Then relatives. I got to my Grandfather and all of a sudden all I could remember was the feeling of being touched in my private area. I went home and called my mother and she was like oh God not you to! Grandpa had done it to her when she was a child but only when grandma wasn't home. She thought I would be ok around him as long as grandma was home. I went threw several months of flashbacks. Remembering being forced to have oral sex, being in the woods and tied to a tree, sitting in a living room full of people on his lap with a pillow over my lap with his hands down my pants. ETc. I finally got a chance to confront him and he admitted it. I had had years of therapy at that time so we talked about it. He was molested by his aunts as a young boy. I know how the cycle can continue. We cried alot after I let him know how it had effected my life and my marriage. I let him know I was notifing the family of his problem and not keeping it a secret. Then I told him I still loved him and forgave him. Then it was behind me and the healing was complete.
I will pray for what you are going through I know this must be the hardest thing you have ever gone through. Remember to take it one day at a time and that it wasn't your fault.
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