Posted by Cass on August 5, 2004, at 0:08:14
In reply to grief is SO much like depression...CASS, posted by jay on August 4, 2004, at 23:39:56
Thanks so much for all of your support. It really helps because I haven't been able to talk to many people about it yet.
I've had suicidal thoughts in the past too. What happened to him could have happened to me, but the last 3 years or so have been great for me, and I haven't had much depression in that time. I'm lucky. The last time I saw my friend, he just seemed very calm, and he was affectionate toward me. I remember being relieved because I was worried that he was mad at me. I guess I can't rack my head trying to figure out why he committed suicide. I just don't know. I wish things were different. I wish he could have held out until things got better. I'm so sad for him. Besides knowing him at church, he and his wife attended my wedding. I had also been to a party at their house. They are linked to my life. Some things are irreversable, and death is one of them. He's gone. I'm not judgemental toward people who commit suicide. I don't blame him. I'm just sad that we'll never see that mischevious sparkle in his blue eyes again.
Thanks again for all your support.
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