Posted by Magdalena on May 13, 2004, at 1:27:41
In reply to Just checking in . . ., posted by jlynne on May 12, 2004, at 20:49:25
hey guys, i am still here and i am doing alright. everyday is still a constant battle but theres really no other choice right? i'm not sure if i should increase because i still get that anxious feeling when i have to go and do something but i guess its not as bad as it used to be. I guess i have just been feeling unmotivated about everything..its really not as bad as i am making it sound but the truth is i feel lazy and still feel like i never sleep enough although i sleep almost 10 hours a night. anyway, besides that i am doing good. :)
Jlynne i know that disconnected feeling all too well, it comes and goes very often for me and when i am there i feel so lonely. what usually helps is a good talk to someone close, makes you feel you have purpose in the world around you, at least thats what it does for me.
Mystic how have you been? i do read the posts, are you thinking of increasing? i want to increase but i still have bad side effect from only being on 10mg...the two that interfere are the oversleepiness and the sexual side effects. :S
not fun.on the other hand i am very in love and its been so long that i still have to pinch myself to make sure i am not dreaming. There are apprehensions because i am dating someone younger than me, i wonder if i am just leading myself on, but i know i am just being silly, i can see how much i mean to him, i just think i always need something to worry about.
im sorry ihavnt been posting lately but i have been thinking that if i dont post as often then i dont have to think about my disorder as often then maybe it will just go away...lol, stupid i know but maybe if i post just once a week then maybe i will feel better, it is worth a shot.
thank you all for the tremendous support and freindships you have offered, you cant know how much you have helped me:)
i will post once a week to see how things are going, i hope you are all feeling some sort of releif from the unpleasantness that we all struggle with, i am lucky to have found you.
sorry if i am sounding really down but for some reason right now i am kinda feeling down..more of a void feeling rather than sad.
the beautiful weather on the other hand is getting me outside more and that is helping a great deal as well.
goodnite to everyone of you and i wish you all the sweetest dreams.
(a Hug for each of ya);)
Mag
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