Posted by Jai Narayan on February 27, 2004, at 18:44:04
In reply to Jai - our Moms, posted by EmmyS on February 27, 2004, at 8:23:25
> Would you tell us about your mom? Mother's Day is also not my favorite...ugh. Spring means it's coming up. Crud. Dang those Hallmark commercials. Emmy
*My mom could fill a book.
She was so big in her personality. She was an open woman and so intelligent.
I guess I would love you to know was she was real hard.
I survived her.
She had a very hard time giving birth to my older sister (mom and baby almost died in birth) and then a few precious months later she was pregnant again with me.
She lost it.I guess if you believe in people being able to decide when and where we are born. I guess it was my decision???? I am unclear why I would choose to be born at that time???
So my mother and I began our connection with a very difficult beginning and it really ended up with a truce. We ended up being able to tollerate eachother... how is that love???
I never felt easy with her, I never felt the support that some feel from their mothers, I never got the love...the sweet love.
My mothers milk was poison for me.
I searched for a mother all my life. I spent many an hour praying and crying. I had an apparition that the goddess appeard to me. She reached her hand down to me and it was filled with light. She was reaching my hand and I held hers till I woke up with the feeling of such joy.....I just never had a mother love me before.
I was in so much need all my life.
I guess you may understand this story and be able to echo it in your life.
Am I wrong?
thanks for asking.
I really appreciate you.
poster:Jai Narayan
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