Posted by PhoenixGirl on February 5, 2004, at 20:21:12
I am so miserable in my job. I work for a dysfunctional, inhuman governmental organization, and it is an indescribable hell. I've worked there for 3 years, and the work is so horrible. I sit there and process benefit claims all day, and they put so much pressure on me to do a high number of them. I am so bored and depressed and tormented. My life is going to waste there. It gives me a high salary and good mental health benefits, which is why I am chained to it.
I would be able to get SOME kind of other job, except that I am having such a hard time finding one with insurance that provides adequate mental health coverage. They put limits on the number of visits. They also limit what medications would be covered. I need Strattera for my depression, but a lot of plans say they'll cover drugs only for what the FDA has approved them for. Strattera is approved for ADD, not for depression. It is so fucking discriminatory. They discriminate against the mentally ill, these greedy bastards.
I've tried to get other jobs, but my depression is so bad that I haven't been able to put much into my job search. And then of course the job market is horrible.
Add on top of this that I have no friends and no family support. Basically no relationships in life. I've started seeing a new therapist because my last one was terrible. I don't want to lose my new therapist.
I feel I just want to die. Life is a horrific experience. I could survive for now if only I had a tolerable job that provided decent mental health coverage.
I live in Atlanta. This sounds desperate, but if anyone is from the area and could help me get a job here, I would be so grateful.