Posted by Karen_kay on January 3, 2004, at 21:43:01
In reply to famly looks @ disorder as contageous disease, posted by st@cy on January 2, 2004, at 12:48:49
Girlie,
I'm sorry that you're family isn't more understanding. We all make mistakes. Are you staying at home during the semester or do you live on campus? Things may get better if you have some time away from your family, some time for things to settle down. And it helps a lot if you have someone to talk to. It just seems that your family isn't supportive towards your situation at all. This isn't your fault at all. Everyone struggles at some point in their lives. And you're doing such a great job. Look at your grades last semester. They're GREAT!!!
And if you're 18, that makes it assault, not child abuse. I wouldn't hesitate to call the police if things get to a point that you can't handle it. Seriously! Just because you know the person doesn't mean she has a right to degrade or abuse you. No one has a right to lay a hand on you. You deserve better than that!
I used to SI because of the environment I was raised in. I couldn't defend myself either. I carried that defense mechanism into adulthood. When I entered counseling I realised and learned better coping skills. I haven't cut myself in quite a while and it feels WONDERFUL! I don't even have the urge anymore.
There are people here who know what you are going through. If it help you to post, continue to do so. We'll be here to help you. But don't feel like this is all your fault. Your family is ignorant about mental illness and apparently feels the need to degrade you. This isn't your fault. Don't place the blame on yourself. You're doing a great job of keeping things together. You're going great in school (and that's a feat for someone who isn't facing mental issues as well). Try to keep a positive attitude. Most universities have counseling centers (are you seeing someone???) at a free or reduced rate. You may want to check into one. That's where I started out. They can be quite helpful, though they usually have only a certain amount of visits allowed. Check into that if you aren't currently seeing a therapist. It really does help. Hang in there :)
poster:Karen_kay
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