Posted by lepus on November 26, 2003, at 14:32:28
In reply to Re: support needed/hope/my story » lepus, posted by Elle2021 on November 26, 2003, at 5:41:35
Thank you all for your advice and support. I wish I could keep this job and go back home but unfortunately the job and my parent's house are two hours apart. I have to choose one or the other. At this point it looks like I will be choosing leaving the job and coming back home (again!!) and hoping that this time maybe I will get the help I need to make it out on my own forever next time. I don't have a lot of hope but maybe someday.
It is just so overwhelming. I thought I was finally free and doing so well and now here I am again, no job, back on disability and living with my parents. With every year that this goes on I begin to lose more and more hope that I will ever have a normal life. I guess I have to redefine "normal". I had so many hopes and dreams and was so ambitious and it just kills me to see those dreams end.
I don't even really know at this point what will help me in terms of therapy and meds. It seems I have been through them all. I think I will try DBT therapy as I have been told in the past I have borderline traits. I guess with this most recent failure those traits have become more full blown and maybe I really do have full blown BPD since all this seemed to have spiralled out of control after my relationship break up.
I just wish I could find some hope for me. I feel doomed.
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