Posted by tensor on November 13, 2003, at 7:12:36
In reply to Re: Two hard choices in my life, plz help., posted by octopusprime on November 12, 2003, at 22:01:43
Hi and thank you.
Financially i'm pretty secure, so far. I haven't gone to a single lecture for over a month. I am just doing nothing. I feel like i don't want to school right now at all. It doesn't feel good when i can't go 100% or even 50%.
I was seeing my doctor wednesday last week and the only med he could offer me was clomipramine or edronax, i've tried them both before with little or no success. I tested edronax til sunday and i felt it had kicked in. But as it did last time it just pumps me full with adrenaline, full of surplus energy with no motivation to use it. Edronax also gives me horrible side effects.
So i've now switched pdoc and am now waiting for an appointment. Arghh.. this waiting.. And i don't what he can do for me, really.>or how about taking a job in the country that you live in now, if it's going home that's the problem?
That's what i did last spring as i wrote earlier and it could of course be an alternative. But to do that i need to feel a little better than i do now.
>tell your family, tell your friends, help them help you explore your options.
I've talked about my illneses with both family and friends. Especially my father, i did talk to him in the spring this year and before that. My mom, his wife passed away four years ago, i don't want burden him with so much more. If i for once sake could bring some good news to him. I know all he wants is me to be happy, but also succeed in my studies, which i'm not.
I have a big family with lots of relatives and everyone has to/need to know why i quitted again and all that stuff, that feels very unpleasant.
I really appreciate your answers and it has made me start to think.
Thanks
/tensor
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