Posted by karen_kay on November 8, 2003, at 8:04:25
In reply to Re: karen kay - how are you doing??? » karen_kay, posted by sfmom on November 7, 2003, at 23:22:24
Thank you very much. I do have a psychiatrist. My therapist told me before the flashbacks started that he would be there. I called him a few times last week and he didn't return all my calls. Wehn I saw him he was like " I noticed you called again" I just feel that he thinks I am a pain if I call him between sessions. Maybe it is because I feel like I'm being a pain, I don't know. I know, things will get better. I slept last night, but I dreamt about my dad all night. So, I kept waking up. My therapist does have experience in this area. I just feel a bit betrayed by him, because I think that he had a feeling this happened all along and didn't tell me. And I don't like head games. I'm just hurt. But, at least a lot of things make sense now. I'm just scared for the future when I really start to remember things and I feel that my therapist isn't there.
My boyfriend bought me flowers yesterday because he knows I haven't been doing so well. That was sweet, but that is aobut it. I can't talk to him about it. I talk to my sister aobut it. She went through some things to with my dad. It's not that I don't have support. I'm just really confused and angry and hurt. But, I know, things will get better. I'm keeping my head up. I always do! Thanks for the concern. I really do appreciate it.
I think when I see my therapist Tuesday, I going to talk to him about how I feel a little hurt by him. Is this a good idea? Maybe I should just drop it and stop acting like a child? Karen
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