Posted by karen_kay on November 2, 2003, at 12:23:03
In reply to Re: sexual abuse survivors and anxiety over our k » sfmom, posted by judy1 on November 2, 2003, at 9:54:13
Well, I don't know if I am intruding on this thread or not because I am kind of a child (ha) myself but this is my situation. I have been having problems with my memory and recently realized that I repressed memories of being sexually abused by my father. I only remembered a couple of situations and just yesterday while having sex with my boyfriend, which is usually a chore to me anyway started crying. I was able to play it off as having something in my eyes and started rubbing them. He doesn't know about it. I don't feel comfortable telling him yet. We've been together for 5.5 years, so I should be able to tell him but I don't want to yet because he calls me a prude sometimes, you understand how I would feel. So, I let him finish because I didn't know what else to do and I didn't want to ruin his good time and I didn't wanthinm to ask questions and Imaybe it is just a learned behavior and it was one of the worst things for me ever. I kept getting confused as to whether it was him or my dad. The problem is that I don't have a "concrete memory" of my dad actually having sex with me. My father is dead. So, is there harm in possibly believing my dad had sex with me? Is this an accurate belief? Does (or has) anyone else have this problem? I am just really confused right now.. Help. Karen
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