Posted by galkeepinon on September 13, 2003, at 1:03:34
In reply to Re: Please advice/feedback/guidance » galkeepinon, posted by Susan J on September 12, 2003, at 9:44:53
Susan, thank you very much for your kind words and support, as well as sharing with me some of your feelings. I am deeply grateful. Your post, of course, helped me tremendously. I take it all:-) The day went a little better, but I am really stressed out tonight and physically I think the increase of Lamictal is partially to blame here. I saw your post this morning and you were right~I woke up today.
I really appreciate your empathy. I understand when you wonder if this is a true story of the rest of your life, I wonder too. My thoughts are with you too, even though I'm feeling a little 'off' lately.
Thank you for helping me to realize that it's OK to do less, or even maybe BE less ya know?
You DO sound like my twin~I have watched my peers get promoted over and over. And I just sit here.
I am going to heed your advice about focusing on learning about myself, what makes me happy, stable, healthy, etc.
I have a dog and I am going to try my hardest to take her for walks. Lately, I've been taking naps~and they help. Funny how when we were young, we hated them, now they are a luxury!
You really have shown me a person who has learned to taken it easy on herself, example-the gym to walking your dog, etc. I admire that.
I also thank you for reminding me that the TINY things that I DO do count and I shouldn't dismiss those. I, like you, feel like I should have been a doctor or a lawyer, but I've got to stop being so hard on myself, I've been told that a few times, maybe I need to just 'BE'
You made me realize again and reminded me that I HAVE learned a lot the past 10 or 11 years. And through it all, I'm still standing. Your wisdom, means so much to me~really. Maybe I am learning to cope, I definately know I have learned a lot more about myself. Some I liked some I didn't. I'm pretty good at letting a person merge in front of me in a traffic jam but never realized your point about them having a bad day and it just may have helped ease *their* stress because of the 'little' thing I did. I hear you!
I'm glad that my sharing was helpful to you, even though my post wasn't the most positive of posts.
I heard a quote by Mother Theresa, it went something like this: 'It's between God and us, it was never between us and them anyway' I thought that was cool, because sometimes I think I can control my world, and/or the people in it when the reality is I cannot. So, I try to do right by what I believe is good and keep on believing that. I am still trying to master this! *smile*
Of course knowing other people care helps, I received a few responses to my post and am so very grateful that I was understood. I am grateful for the people on this board that did respond and to those that read it, I hope it helped them to feel they can reach out here~it took me some guts, I am a rather private person.
My mom is hurting, watching me struggle, but she is just trying to do the best she can, and I ask no more of her. I love her with all my heart.
Susan, again, thank you very much!
Take care of you too:-)
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