Posted by lil' jimi on August 13, 2003, at 17:03:43
In reply to re: another past life for us/ lil jimi, posted by kara lynne on August 13, 2003, at 12:22:56
hi kara Lynne,
> Ah! Thank you for making clear the obvious. Of course that's what you might infer from the events--talk about top stressors. And it is still so fresh, really.
>Hey, You're Welcome!
i try to offer the comfrimation that others can see and recognize your plight there ... and, babe, you got a doozy! ..... .... hang in there!... xxx .... .... (yes, those are kisses) ...
> I don't quite understand the 6/9 months thing--does that mean grieving past 6 months makes you a candidate for meds? ( I can never get behind these time slots we're supposed to have for our emotions...) Well whatever the rationale it led you to something that works for you, and that's all that matters.
>thanks ... that's how i see it too ... ... i have never heard anybody specify grieving times like that ... ... very irritating, yet now very minor, really ... ... just one more weird thing.
> I don't think your fears are the slightest bit silly; I don't see how someone wouldn't have been impacted dramatically by the timing of those two things. I do think it's unfortunate though, that you have to be left with so much unresolved fear. Is there someone--a mentor, friend, fellow Buddhist that you could talk about this with?
>actually that remains an option for me ... ... i have friends at the buddhist temple where pema norbu visited ... ... i have intentionally put that off for the time being ... ... i suppose that my misgivings do amount to fear, but i hadn't thought of it that way .... yet.
and i have a friend over on the Faith board who has offered to do a channeling about this for me ...
> "ever feel like you are supposed to be learning a lesson about something and the universe is screaming it at you but you don't get it?"
May I say... everyday??
>okay. ... it is a kind of weird feeling, you know?
> But I get this sense lil Jimi, and I wish I could articulate it better, that the meaning for you ultimately is a very positive one. That on the other side of this fear lies a joy in what the actual connection might mean. I hope I'm not overstepping-- please slap me if I am. I just think there is something very beautiful waiting for you, in another reflection of the mirror.
>you, dear friend, could not overstep with me.
wonderful of you to offer such insightful, heartfelt, empathetic, beautiful sympathies ... .. ... thank you so much ...
... ... those are my feelings too, that there's a secret silver lining to my depression's dark cloud ... ... and i must learn from it ... ... .. ... it's just that it seems like it is so ... ... obvious and staring me in the face ... ... yet totally elusive ... ... for now> Thank you for indulging me my stress factors-- my misdocumented drama, my inadequate dx (that sounds so funny--even my diagnosis is inadequate!). I am off to...ta da...the ear doctor, so he can look at my lanced eustachian tube.
>Oh! ... Do take care of those ears! ... ... indulging you is easy ... .... you read me great!
> Thank you for writing.
hey, i thank you for reading ... me ... so well.
~ jim
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