Posted by yesac on August 12, 2003, at 14:03:12
In reply to re: Weekend Queen of the Blues » yesac, posted by lil' jimi on August 9, 2003, at 1:05:29
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> so i'm saying your NeuroTransMitters (NTMs) are using your emotions against you, instead of For you ... ... you're not getting the neurochemical support to relieve the malaise
> ... ... weren't we reading the med board lately looking for alternatives, maybe? ... seems like a plan to me ... ... adjustments have got to be in order to get you relief ... ... but you knew that ...Yes, I have been extensively searching for possible medications that might help. Even looking at NIMH trials, not to participate actually, but just to get some ideas. I feel that I am at a stage of treatment-resistance that I really need to just look into totally other options. Maybe get away from the usual "antidepressants" because those obviously aren't doing everything. I've failed drugs from every standard class of ADs, including MAOIs (right now I'm on Parnate - hasn't done anything - wonder drug that it's supposed to be!). I'm thinking my next step will be a stimulant. Seeing my doc in a week. Lots to talk about with him.
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> ... ... this is not of your choosing and it can't be your fault ... you don't Want to feel like this ... so try to give yourself a break about it ... Of Course, you are Not to blame here ...I know. But sometimes, you know, I just can't believe that this is really my life. It's like, there are all these stats out there... let's say something like 30% of people will suffer from mental illness sometime in their lives. 25% of people will suffer depression sometime in their lives. Well, yes, that is a lot, and possibly underestimated, but... still, that means that there are like at least 50% of adults out there who will NEVER experience it. I can't imagine life without depression. I can't imagine waking up and going through my days just feeling fine/good. Excited. Happy. I feel all of these things at times, moments here and there of contentness or calmness or well-being... but just for a few minutes or hours at a time. The depression is always looming in the background.
I don't know if I've mentioned it to you, but I did study neuroscience in college, so I have a bit of knowledge about the way things work/don't work. Not to say that I'm an expert or anything - far from it! But with that, and also learning so much from the med board and google searches, and talking to my psychiatrist, I really think that I understand a lot about medications. In any case - it doesn't really matter because understanding ABOUT medications has nothing to do with knowing if any particular thing will work for any particular person. It's all just so very preliminary really - we've barely even hit the frontier of brain knowledge, and they really don't know what mental illnesses are about, let alone what/how to "fix" them. It's just hit-or-miss, all a big game with no proven strategy to work with.
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