Posted by Temmie on August 9, 2003, at 19:37:47
In reply to Re: Need to scream » Temmie, posted by fallsfall on August 9, 2003, at 19:28:58
I have been somewhat rattled today. It is perhaps an impossibility0 to be attempting to love on the one hand, and to let go with the other. Paul continues to call, and say the sweetest most encouraging things -- but I was reminded by a friend today (I guess she's becoming my sponsor), that love isn't a "feeling," but a series of behaviors. Is he reliable. Is he trustworthy. Will he be there for me, etc. etc. etc. I think we all know the answers to that.
The bottom-line, I have to recognize him for the sick person that he is -- to love, support and pray for him, as best as I'm able -- and to keep going to meetings -- as often as possible -- so I can keep walking that straight and narrow of putting myself first -- and my obedience and willingness to serve God (oops, am I on the wrong site here?) .... my willingness to be open to spirit, and to be open to -- you know -- following the direction and guidance of my higher power -- lead my way.
I am feeling a little better after a meeting this evening.
Going upstairs to pray now, which prayers will include you. I am so grateful to you and others, for bringing such hope into my life ... when all has seemed hopeless.
Om Ah Ra Pa Tsa Na Dhi. I'm grateful for referalls to new benevolent beings, who are more than willing to be of help ....
I am finding my way ... little by little ... with occasional setbacks ... occasional feelings of despair ... and occasional moments of feeling I'm going to make it.
Much, much love! I hope you did a good share of screaming and crying today! Temmie
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