Posted by fallsfall on August 9, 2003, at 10:02:49
Sometimes I get overwhelmed. Like now.
There is too much going on. My father-in-law died last week and we had the burial on Monday and a Memorial service for him and my mother-in-law (who died 8 months ago) on Thursday. My husband and I are separated, so this was all a little weird. My parents and sister came to these events, and the memorial service had all of my husband's relatives who I haven't seen for 5 years. This all required a lot of driving (1 1/2 hours each way) - and I don't like to go more than 30 minutes (it takes too much concentration).
The weekend before my kids and I went to the cottage on the lake - this was wonderful, but it wasn't "normal" or home-sweet-home. And it was 1 1/2 hours away.
Before that my best friend was in the hospital (I talked her into going), and I went to visit a couple of times (1 hour away).
2 nights ago she was hit by a car crossing the street. She had 5 stitches in her head and was pretty shook up. I went to keep her company at the hospital (at midnight).
My daughter is up from CT for the memorial service and a thing tonight. But I don't have the energy to want to do anything with her.
There is a ceremony tonight where my son will get a big award from DeMolay (a kid's organization connected to Masonry). My parents will be there, too. It's 1 hour away, but I can ride over with my daughter and back with my husband (arg!!! but it is better than driving). My youngest doesn't want to go tonight. I think she should go to support her brother. My husband thinks she can skip it. I don't have the energy to fight this.
I can't get to sleep, and then I keep waking up.
My dog has suspicious lumps on his side.
My therapist was on vacation last week and this coming week.
I need everything to stop so I can catch up. I know that if I can rest I will pull it back together.
I have support group meetings on Sunday and Monday (and I need to give my friend a ride). I have a meeting with a financial person Tuesday. I'm supposed to walk with a friend and take my daughter for an eye doctor appointment on Wednesday.
ARGH! Now this thing tonight isn't at 7PM, it is at 2PM. I can't take it!
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