Posted by Ame Sans Vie on August 4, 2003, at 13:20:53
In reply to Re: Since I'm new, some more info on me... » Ame Sans Vie, posted by galkeepinon on August 4, 2003, at 12:18:00
> Hey there! I thought your post was wonderful, and I thank you for sharing that all with us. As I read it, I thought "how old is she?"
lol, I'm a he, actually, but that's okay. :-)
>When you said 20, I realized, wow-you have been through a lot in your short time here on earth.
Yeah... I feel like a 90-year-old trapped in a 20-year-old's body sometimes... <sigh>
>You talked about never knowing your father, and right now my father and I are not speaking (his choice) he is an alcoholic/addict, has many different alias', and has used and abused me and his mother(my grandmother) and our family.
I'm really sorry to hear that... from what my mother tells me about my biological father, though, it's probably best that I don't try to get in touch with him. You know, all my life I believed my adopted father was my biological father -- my mom didn't tell me the truth until I was 16!!! And she wouldn't tell me his last name... Just that his first name was Alben, but everyone called him Troy, and that he was a 6'6" Irishman from Kentucky, lol. I'm ashamed to admit this, but I went through my mom's diary for April, 1982 (when I would have been conceived) to find out my real dad's name when she told me the truth.
>I like the idea of your approach to other avenues besides medication.
Well, I'm kind of a health nut, lol. Try not to let it rub off too much -- it can drive you crazy, lol.
> How did you remain strong through all this???? Losing friends, what is your restricted carbohydrate diet like??? I need to lose this weight psych meds have put on me over the years also.
Oh my gods, I didn't know the meaning of the word "strong". That's why I turned escapism by way of illicit drugs into a fine science for myself.
I follow a modified version of the Atkins diet, outlined in the book "Dr. Atkins' New Diet Revolution". It's a very interesting book, and if you haven't read it, I ***VERY*** highly recommend it. The diet makes so much more sense than any diet I've ever tried in the past. And it's so easy!! The basis of the diet is, of course, restricted carbohydrate intake. You can eat as many calories as you want from fat and protein, just as long as you keep your carbohydrate intake at a level that maintains a state called "ketosis", in which your body is burning fat for energy because there are few carbohydrates to burn. Most people just have to keep their carb intake below 20mg/day. My metabolism is extremely sluggish though, and I have a very high insulin sensitivity, so I cut practically *all* carbohydrates out of my diet -- at most, I get about one gram a day. My diet consists of meat, cheese, butter, eggs, fowl, and fish. And that's it. The diet greatly reduces your appetite because fat is so satisfying. But the way I modify it to make it more healthy is to incorporate one of the principles of the Mediterranean diet -- I try to eat more fish than anything, so most of the fat I take in is the *good* fat, omega-3's and 6's. You can easily lose 20-25 lbs. a month on this diet, and even more if you exercise. And an added bonus is that the diet gives most people a great uplift in mood and a bunch of extra energy (once you get past the first two days, when your body is burning up its glycogen stores).
> You sound like me, everything from your GPA to pulling a knife on my mom(is what I did at one time)
> I'm realizing too, that there is more to life than being a "social butterfly" ;)
> What is a pagan???Pagan is sort of a broad term... it covers a lot of different things. In a nutshell, to me paganism is holding the earth and all its creatures in high regard, belief in a God and Goddess, and using spells and rituals to help achieve certain goals.
> Just wanted to thank you again for sharing this, it took a lot of courage on your part.
> Thanks!Thank *you* for being so kind! :-)
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