Posted by giget on July 17, 2003, at 9:26:56
In reply to Re: I went psycho again... » giget, posted by yesac on July 17, 2003, at 9:12:50
I asked you the basics the other day too... I could not remember.
5 years together, 2 years on and off... so 7 years. He really told me that he would never be happy with me, and could not live his life with me about 2 weeks ago. Before that there was always hope and proven hope.
It is a long time to know someone, to love someone, to handle the differences and to lose them or even the dream of the future is killing me.
When I met him back in the day, I was just trying to fit in and loved his personalitly. I looked past a few things and fell in love with who he was not what he was. I just wanted the whole society dream... I knew I could not do that and be truthful to myself, but that is all I wanted. And when I get down all I want it that person back, the best friend... He was very understanding with me, but at the end of the 5 years I finally woke up to who he really was, outside and inside at that time.
I am into commitment and no matter what would not do anything... You can not pick who you fall in love with....
I just miss the closness.... the safness... someone to convince me everything is going to be ok, and if not they will be there to fall back on...
This is another reason I need to find a new job... working here for the past 5 years with him, and going up and down impacts my job....
and anyone can see into your cube and people are very proud of pictures, and now we both took them down and it hurts...
Bla..Bla..bla... Sorry... Mental illness just makes you so vonerable...
> This is an ex-bf right? Not an ex-husband?
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> How long were you together? When did you break up?
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> Maybe you've posted all this before, but I just don't seem to know.
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