Posted by Emme on July 10, 2003, at 7:23:26
In reply to Re: Kara Lynne? You there? , posted by kara lynne on July 9, 2003, at 23:09:44
> Dear Emme,
> Thank you so much for checking. I've been feeling so disconnected and alone.Ooh, sorry to hear that. Glad you started posting again.
> I'm not doing so well (posted below), but trying to get through. It's really difficult not to feel that I am abandon-able. That's what this means to me. I know it says more about him than me,
And just keep telling yourself that. Easier said than done, I know. But you're not abandonABLE. He's abandonING.
> but deep down it just feels like I'm unloveable, and leave-able. He certainly isn't fighting for me, that's for sure.
I don't mean to offend, and I hope you won't take this the wrong way, but it may be better that he's not fighting for you. Shows his true colors all the more. You don't need to be tempted to go back into a situation where you'll be hurt again and again.
> I'm really tired and it makes me more obsessive. I see my doctor next week, but there aren't too many things left to try at this point. Last week I tried Paxil XR, but I had so many nightmares...
I had really unpleasant nightmares last time I tried Paxil. Night after night. It started to wear on me. If the nightmares don't subside, then there's GOT to be another option. Every time my doctor says we're running out of options, she somehow comes up with a new one.
> Anyway, thank you again for checking in. How are things going with you?
Thanks for asking. I'm tired and wish my brain were sharper. But I'm holding together for the moment.
Emme
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