Posted by Dinah on June 28, 2003, at 20:04:38
In reply to Re: Forever Therapy » Dinah, posted by fallsfall on June 28, 2003, at 12:45:43
> Well, Dinah,
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> I hope your forever is longer than mine.Me too. :(
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> I'm not having any fun right now, but I'm still here typing away. I have more hope than I've had in a long time. Sometimes not-so-good things end up being really OK.
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I'm really glad. That's terrific. I'll try to hold on to that thought if I ever need it.> So how was the office? How was the traffic? What color are the walls?
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Won't know till the end of next week. He told me about it, and printed a map of how to best get there. It's in a big shiny building in the big shiny business district. Yech. I'm not business district material.> What did you mean by: "He's growing as a therapist faster than I'm growing as a client I fear."?
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Well, I'm glad he's growing as a therapist. I just wish I were growing faster. He used to have a real problem with dependent women, and whenever I discussed my fear of termination he got all defensive and angry. His stuff, by his own admission. I would argue with him about how he was misinterpreting what I said as a demand for forever therapy, when I was trying to discuss my fears. He's apparently accepted that and worked on his own issues, because he was really laid back and accepting this time. He teased me a bit about it, but not with any anger or irritation. So he's growing.> You know, I felt better when I figured out what I was depending on her to do. That let me start to work on a way to meet that need without her.
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I depend on him to help me feel safe. I've never really known the feeling of safety from within, and only fleetingly from without. He swears that one day I will internalize that feeling of safety, and until then it's perfectly ok to feel dependent. Seems like a long shot to me.Thanks Fallsfalls. :)
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