Posted by Emme on June 25, 2003, at 19:51:59
In reply to Re: Getting worser and worser » Emme, posted by yesac on June 25, 2003, at 11:29:36
> > Thanks for the encouragement. Today was so hideous I couldn't leave my place until late afternoon because I couln't stop crying. I'm exhausted and haven't eaten much today. I talked to my pdoc. The issue of hospitalization came up. Part of me thinks it's a good idea, part of me is terrified. We're probably going to figure out a plan, but leave it as a last resort. She asked if I wanted to go in today, but I held off.
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> I've been there with the whole hospital plan. Discussed it in detail with my psychiatrist and my past therapist, and been quite close to really going, but I never actually have. I too am terrified about that. But somehow things always managed to become enough okay that I didn't have to. But, as people here have said to me, I think that if you really feel like you need to go, then you probably should.
>I don't know how to know when it's justified...when I'm sick enough. One day I might feel like it's necessary, but then by the next day I've improved and moved up to "just plain miserable". I can generally get up, shower, pick up things at the drugstore, and do some basics. But I'm worn and scared and think about death a lot. I just don't know. But it seems like talking to her about it isn't a bad idea. Then maybe I'd be more inclined to go if it's really the right thing...
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