Posted by zenhussy on June 10, 2003, at 4:02:24
...it means you have to wake up again?
So in search of anything to relieve constant mental angony that I'm drinking like a fish for the next ten days before I head off for a family business trip--and yes it is a red eye with an ungodly early a.m. connection time of under 75 minutes to clear customs and make the next flight. I am *so* looking forward to this one.
It has been about nine years since I've tried to medicate with alcohol. Pathetic but nothing in any of these gazillion rx bottles contain the right mix to alleviate my symptoms that day in and day out rain on my life's parade.
Add to that only four days to prepare for three weeks (plus? unknown as of yet) on said trip. I'm in that negative space where I'm basically feeling like my garden outside will die--I have eight tomato plants in this year and four kinds of pole beans along with basics of herbs and baby greens--and my indoor plants and trees are going to suffer. I have the people next door and behind to ask to stop by and water twice weekly unless there is unusual heat while I'm away. I just reread this and how sad I sound! Like my neighbors aren't going to water while I'm away? I live near decent people and it isn't as if I haven't watered for them, fed their animals and brought in their mail. So why do I feel as if my asking will be some enormous imposition?
I'm feeling so much to do and so incapable of doing it. The to do lists are just piled up around the house buried beneath other piles of stuff.
Gripe. Whine. Slightly drunken ramble.
zenhussy
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