Posted by kara lynne on May 25, 2003, at 20:51:48
In reply to be gentle with me- is this my ocd?, posted by babs on May 25, 2003, at 18:28:33
Hi babs,
I just wanted to extend a good thought in your direction. I'm sorry you're going through so much pain right now.It sure does sound (IMHO) like OCD to me, which would be reasonable considering what a trauma you have recently experienced. It makes sense that that would be kicked up. I agree wholeheartedly with noa, not to pressure yourself to come to any conclusions until you're feeling better. Somewhere in the back of my chaotic mind I'm recalling that that kind of thought pattern is common to have about the people that we *do* love. Of course I don't know your true feelings, but I know you will find them for yourself in time and they will be ok no matter what they are.
Take it from someone who has the most horrible thoughts about everything--sometimes, most of the time (mercifully), they don't have the meaning we attach to them. It's just the d*mn fear and obsession talking--and self punishment on top of that.
So at the risk of sounding over-simple, and giving advice I have trouble taking myself, try to take care and be gentle with yourself right now. It sounds like an increase in meds might be a good idea to get you through this period--along with as much T.L.C. as you can get!
My thoughts are with you,
Kara
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