Posted by Dinah on May 22, 2003, at 21:48:41
In reply to WhiteRabbit (G), Dinah and WendyB, posted by leeran on May 22, 2003, at 14:49:59
> So, here's the deal (somehow, I think you all will see where this is going and hopefully someone will understand).
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> It has crossed the very unreasonable part of my gray matter that my "spilling of the beans" in my post about my childhood has wrought this terrible punishment - which is the punishment of losing my son.
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> I know this is sick and it is obviously just one more reason I need therapy.I do understand. I have long been a great believer in the fates. I don't ascribe it to God, but the fates. If you wish for something, the fates will give it to you in a way that you never intended, and that makes you sorry you ever wished. If you do something bad, something bad will happen.
It causes me to wrap things I say in so many disclaimers, just to confuse the fates. And it is part of what got me that schizotypal diagnosis from my first pdoc.
Therapy has helped. I'm no longer quite as afraid of the fates. Of course, I still respect their power (see, a disclaimer). But I do understand. And in my admittedly biased opinion, it's not sick. It's just conditioning. We've probably had so many instances where it seems to be true, based on our life experiences.
And I suspect you have dodged the bullet. I doubt your son is like his dad. He sounds like a fine young man. Living with his dad for a few months, or a few years if by some chance his dad has changed, isn't going to change that.
But I know it hurts.
poster:Dinah
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