Posted by whiterabbit on April 29, 2003, at 20:04:41
In reply to Re: Whattaya mean, old? » whiterabbit, posted by WorryGirl on April 28, 2003, at 9:19:20
Actually I'm making pretty good time in plowing through the grief process. I'm past the shock and rage and done with the real crying, although I still get misty on occasion. My psychiatrist cranked up the Paxil to 60 mg daily and it's doing a fine job. I'm feeling relatively lucid these days and doing stuff I haven't done in
years - painting, writing letters, answering the phone, playing with the dogs. When I was really depressed all I wanted to do was read and sleep,
or try to sleep.So you hang in there. I say this all the time and I'll say it again - if I can get better, anyone can get better. I was a self-destructive mess for a really long time so in a way I can understand what my husband is doing, but I did tell him the other day, "You know, someday you might get sick too." That's all I said and that was enough.
Anyways, being a writer would be awesome, although
I'd have a tough time dealing with the deadlines and all the rejection slips. I understand that's par for the course. I'm feeling pretty rejected already but I'll get through it. I would write about my "bipolar experience" but I actually can't remember a lot of it, which is a blessing I think. My psychiatrist, who I'm going to get rid of because he's a jerk, tells me this memory loss is the result of "brain damage" I've caused myself with all my drinking and drugging, so I walked around for days feeling brain-damaged. What a sweetheart.We'll be okay! You and I will both be okay, have faith.
8-) Gracie
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