Posted by wendy b. on April 19, 2003, at 9:33:14
In reply to Re: Pissy, snipey, itchy and scratchy., posted by leeran on April 19, 2003, at 0:19:20
Lee,
> I agree. The rational part of the mind knows that everyone isn't out to ruin my day but sometimes it just seems like everyone is IN MY WAY.
Absolutely. That is the feeling. And I am usually a very sociable person, so when I'm out of sorts, it just bothers me even more...
> I wonder if that isn't the anti-social aspect of depression rearing its ugly old head. It just "seems" like people are in my way because the prospect of dealing with them is currently so unappealing.Yes, I get that, too. I sometimes wonder if it's 'social phobia,' except for the fact that I am, as I say, usually quite a social animal, get along well with others, etc. It certainly is ANXIETY, though, whatever else one might label it. I just want to know where it comes from... since it comes on suddenly, and seems foreign to me, and I want it to stop. This is where I think brain chemistry is taking over, and the same reactions I used to have at stressors, come back and do their thing again. Except I know that when I was on neurontin, I did not feel this way, at all. So this thread has been good for me, because I know now, from sorting it out here (thanks KaraLynn & Karen, too) that I need to be back on it...
> Maybe it IS the full moon. Do the tides corrode the face as well as the shoreline? I'm using Tazorac for acne right nowWhat kind of drug is this? Probably has all sorts of side-effects, too, right?
>and there is this "it's gonna get really bad before it gets better" phase that they warn you about, and I'm stuck in it this week.
Ohhh, man, I'm so sorry about that... It must be my stupid pimple magnified by 10. I hope the medicine works soon.
>My face looks worse than it did in high school and I feel like the epitome of that old joke: "Does your face hurt?" - "No, why?" - "It's killing me." I made a dash to the seat facing the wall when we went out to eat tonight.
Yeah, I remember that joke... Ugh. I also remember teenagers calling each other "pizza-face," when their acne was bad, and the pain of that is horrible. I had some bad acne, but not all over, like some kids did. I think I would have started in early on the suicidal ideation if it had been me. I knew how bad I felt just having red welts appear on my nose. High school kids can be so incredibly mean...
> So, yeah, I can totally relate to the pimple situation. It makes me even more withdrawn and edgy. If only I could wear my hair like Cousin Itt on the Addams family . . .
Thank you! I had a feeling somebody could relate to that, too! I remember Cousin Itt... A great metaphor for hiding from life. We used to try to do that with our hair. I saw some kid at Halloween last year with that kind of costume, a wig worn so the hair covered the front of her face...
> I looked up "depression" and "acne" today and it seems that acne can make people more depressed, and depression causes an increase in sebum production. Talk about a vicious circle!
What a good idea, to look that up. I can totally see the connection between the two... It is so involved with self-esteem, how one's face looks... I've often wondered why there is no "cure" for acne, since so many many people suffer from it, and are often disfigured by it (in both the physical AND the emotional senses). Do you wonder that too? All the money and time and effort into things like cancer and AIDS drugs... which is great, of course. But wouldn't you think money and time and effort eradicating acne from Planet Earth would be a noble goal for some inquiring research scientist or two? (Caveat: I know there are people who do this kind of work... it's just not a "sexy" research topic, I guess, and therefore probably doesn't get much funding).
> On another note, the way you described Neurontin sounds wonderful. All these drugs I had never heard of until I landed here a few weeks ago. I'm afraid to ask if it causes weight gain (something tells me it does?). I have an appointment with my psychiatrist Monday and maybe I'll mention it.Do a quick search on the meds board... Everybody doesn't respond the same way I did, of course, but there are very few side effects that don't go away fairly quickly (I would get dizzy standing up too quickly, dry mouth). But waiting them out was no problem. I also did NOT gain weight from it, even at a fairly high dose (3000 to 3600 mg per day), although some people have, I think. My feeling overall was that it was pretty gentle on my system.
> Take care, have a good weekend (hopefully free of the revving of your neighbor's old flat-bed), and may tomorrow dawn, pimple-less, in your neck of the woods.
So far, so good, the pimple is a little red, but I can live with that... The neighbor is going to be the end of me, I'm sure, some day! I'll just pop a blood vessel in my brain, and have to be taken off in an ambulance...
(One paramedic to another - "What happened to this lady?" -- "She keeps muttering something about her neighbor, no visible means of support, and a flat-bed..."):-]
Wendy
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