Posted by noa on March 20, 2003, at 16:58:42
In reply to I'm having a really hard time., posted by kara lynne on March 20, 2003, at 14:44:37
kara lynne, are you ill with a stomach/intestinal thing?
When I have that kind of viral illness, depressed or not, I usually do have thoughts along the lines of, "Just take me now, Lord". Really, that kind of illness is AWFUL! I'm not joking, those thoughts seem very reasonable to me at those times because of what is going on inside my body. And then, when mixed with depression, it is unbearable.
Sometimes it feels like aliens have decided to hold the war of the worlds inside my innards! Or that my body is engaged in an all out war of survival against this alien invader, "stomach virus". It is violent and wretched (literally wretched!). BUT, it does end and when it does I almost can't beleive it! It seems miraculous to come throught all that horrid pain and nausea.
Try telling yourself not to make any decisions now, not to draw any conclusions at this time, that you are sick and feel just horrible and it is a bad time to decide about your future. Just do what you need to do to get through this.
I have always found that physical illness makes my depression worse, and I have to try to reinterpret the depressed feelings with that knowledge. "I feel more depressed, but that is what happens when I'm sick. Illness makes me feel more depressed but it is temporary."
Hang in there!
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