Posted by kara lynne on February 14, 2003, at 22:46:50
Hello everyone. Here I am exhausted from depression and frustration and disappointment. Things have not worked out between my boyfriend and me, and I am immersed in disappointment living in the same house with him. I need the strength to get out, and to get out quicky so that I can get some semblance of myself back. It seems that I can't get any momentum going in my attempts to move forward; like I've got one foot on the gas and one on the brake. I know now that I definitely need to leave; for a long time I kept hoping that things might work out. Tonight I wish I were doing something other than wallowing in this disappointment. The irony is that of course, each time I've got my foot energetically out the door, he rallies and throws me some bone. But I am invariably, consistently and heartbreakingly disappointed over and over and over. I long to find a non-depressing place I can afford, where I feel safe, with nice people around me. I just need enough energy and movement to make it happen. I hate Valentine's day.
poster:kara lynne
thread:200560
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