Posted by bpdzone2000 on February 3, 2003, at 22:42:21
In reply to Re: Fickle therapists » Eddie Sylvano, posted by Dinah on January 28, 2003, at 16:48:41
I have a great fear that my therapist will leave me. I posted last week on abandonment and I took your advice and talked with my therapist about some of my fears with her. It was something that bothered me for a long time, and that it was not unsusual to have these feelings. But I was amazed to find that it was o.k. and I was not alone.
I feel very lucky to have a wonderful therapist but I can't stop the feelings of what she might think of me?
I know that's something I have to work on... the self esteem thing... but how long do we have to get beat up before we say enough is enough?
It sometimes gets to a point that you just don't care anymore and then you get into the old habits, bad thoughts, then isolation... then the mind starts to race and then crash and the cycle begins to not knowing or caring and then welcome to existence. And I thought you were suppose to live life not exist.
Sorry for the blabbing...
I got some big changes a head of me...
I've made a committment to my therapist... Now isn't that scarey!!! I'll do it for her before myself...
thanks for your posts everyone!
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