Posted by daizy on January 18, 2003, at 9:32:18
In reply to Re: How to cope? » daizy, posted by mikhail99 on January 17, 2003, at 12:53:36
> > In the past few days I have been feeling less anxious, and more like I used to in the past. However, im finding it hard to re-adjust. I think ive said this before but, when im not anxious, and panicked, I feel plain depressed. Im kinda feeling like that now. Im only a few days into the new meds and maybe im getting ahead of myself, but im starting to understand why I did such things as take drugs, basically because my life is dull. Thats how I feel now, dull. Im not upto going out with my friends and stuff again yet, so im just chilling at home everyday, not doing much so I have too much time to think. Maybe i made myself anxious as a way of escaping the reality. Ive just got this deja vous feeling all the time, and i keep remembering all the bad stuff in my life that I tried to put to the back of my mind. I FEEL LIKE I AM LIVING IN THE PAST. I need a way to move on. As I start to feel better (which I hope I will) Im wondering how im going to cope, and make things different so as I wont relapse. Has anyone else felt like this? How did you lot cope? I dont have the support that I used to either, I havnt been out with my friends for almost a year, and most of them still do things like take drugs, and I have to try hard not to go down that route again. My family live away now, so its hard to start doing normal things like going out when I am alone. I just think that if I get better i will never be able to forget what it feels like to be depressed and that in itself may stop me from being normal again.
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> Daizy, your post made perfect sense because I often feel the same way. I'm rarely on an even keel, either depressed or anxious. And I know when the anxiety isn't going on, it's like something is missing. Do we get addicted to those stress hormones going on when we're anxious? The two must definitely go hand in hand. I cope by trying to stay busy but I think that's probably avoiding the issue. But if I don't stay busy, then I start obsessing about all that's wrong with my life and then I get depressed. GEEZ I'M A MESS!!!
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> But anyway, I admire your desire to avoid the friends who are involved with drugs, that's not a road you want to go down again. Are you in therapy now? If not, I think that's a good place to start so you can talk about your fears and your time alone and how to cope. I'm so socially inept, I don't really hang out with anyone except my husband but he's rarely around. So I signed up (and I hope this doesn't sound pathetic) for a class called "Women's Night Out" offered by the local free university. We'll start meeting on Saturdays and going to cultural events. I though it might be a good way to meet people. I'm also going to take some wine-tasting (not entirely sure if that's a good idea yet) class and maybe some cooking classes. It's so hard to meet people that you share interests with, isn't it? But I would look for stuff like that in your area.
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> And try to remember (this is what my therapist tells me) to take it one day at a time. When I'm in the grip of anxiety, I have to remind myself that it's not a permanent state and it won't last forever. It's a bit harder with the depression but I still try to tell myself something similar.
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> Ok, I've gone on long enough. Hang in there and remember that you're doing all the right things. Please take care and keep us posted.
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No I think your brave to go out there and start doing different things. I have been looking into taking an evening class or something. It is a good way to get out of the house and have something else to focus on. I do really need to start meeting new people, and at some point maybe start a relationship. That is also worrying me a bit, ive never really had a proper romantic relationship, and all my friends have partners, so being the only single one is like an added pressure! but as you said its one day at a time. THANX.........
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