Posted by Alii on January 7, 2003, at 22:43:44
In reply to Re: what its like being a bad machine » kid a, posted by snowden on January 7, 2003, at 20:18:53
>>all my life mental illness has been a voice on my shoulder, whispering, "you're no good", "you're not one of them", "you're inhuman", "you will live this way forever"...
>>my thought patterns change over the years, in some ways im a lot stronger now... but i still feel alienated, cant/dont call back people who call, two messages today, and i put it off...
>>when im out and arround people im fine, no agoraphobic (is that the right word), but at home, i have some sort of natural dread of the phone ringing, unless its one of the few people who i can talk to...
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>>>>OMG, I thought I was the only one...it's almost refreshing to hear that someone else out there knows what it's like, although I wish it weren't so for either of us...
>>>> SnowSnow,
kid_A sure does have a way with the dark words and feelings. That's why I'm always amazed at his ability to bring into words the horrendous feelings I go through as a person with major depression.
I'm sorry that you too are a walker in this darkness.
Namaste.
~Alii
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