Posted by Jaynee on December 17, 2002, at 12:49:00
In reply to about the article,,, » Jaynee, posted by IsoM on December 17, 2002, at 12:17:43
IsoM, I didn't get post-partum either. I would have been the perfect candidate, but it didn't happen. I tried to breast feed, but I got an infection and once they put me on anti-biotics, I dried up like a prune. I was young and kind of freaked out by the whole process, plus I had an absolute idiot for a husband, but absolutely no anxiety, and no real depression to speak of. But then again, with me the depression seems to come every 5 to 6 years, no matter what.
But I do want to treat the ADD, for the first time in my life. Which in itself is a scary thing for me. To actually be able to reach my full potential is going to change a lot of things. I had so many oportunities, athletic scholarship (which I quit), modelling, etc, all of which I screwed up, by being a screw up. I am too old and fat to model again, or high jump, but there are so many things I want to sink my teeth into. I want to be able to follow through with things. I just finished school and passed my national certification exam, so I was thrilled about that. It was the first thing I have ever really stuck with and finished. It took me a while, but I was so f%&*#n proud of myself. My siblings all have master or doctorate degrees, I know that mine is only a 2 year diploma, but I am just so thrilled. I used to be embarrased by that, but not anymore. I know I was given the short end of the deal, but I am going to make the most of it. What was even neater, was how proud my daughter was. My father always called me a quiter, so now I always email him stuff on what it is like to live with ADD and depression/anxiety. Just to piss him off/ and let him know they gave me these crappy genes.
I know getting something that helps with the distraction will change my life. I just hope I am ready for it.
Thanks for all your help once again.
poster:Jaynee
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