Posted by Jaynee on December 16, 2002, at 22:46:10
In reply to Re: Question?, posted by Mr Cushing on December 16, 2002, at 20:39:53
Yes that is what happens. I never took any AD before this last bout. I just took ativan to sleep and then just worked really hard at getting better. Better nutrition, read every available book on CBT, and tried to practice that, Lots of vitamins, and different herbal type remedies. Meditation and exercise, quit drinking for a year. Once I get the anxiety under control, I am on my way to being better. Clair Weekes books were a life saver. The bouts of extreme anxiety, last about a month, and the depression, usually takes 6 months to a year to go away, with or without the AD.
I am not someone who has a hard time talking about my depression/anxiety, and when I get really bad, I ask for help. I have 4 very close girlfriends who are on anti-depressants. One friend in particular, gets exactly what I get. Her bouts come on every so many years as well. We both went through our last bout together. She is in Ontario as well. So we spent many hours on the phone and email, talking one another through it. My last bout I phoned and asked her about Desyrl, because that is what she had to take to sleep last time she had her bout, she got mad at her husband because she thought he had told me she was depressed again. I said no, I am going through hell right now, and she said, weird because she too was having a rough time. So it was beneficial to have someone else who could completly relate. My husband didn't know what to make of it. Because he had never really seen me like that and couldn't relate at all.
I also ask my mother to fly up and help with my daughter who is a teenager, and an amazingly good kid, but I was unable to cope with anything. My mom said her and my dad where sitting in church, and they realized that they were sitting with two very close couple friends, both of who had a child who had killed themselves. So needless to say my mom came as soon as she could. Also, I was at a B-ball tourney of my daughters and I was talking to a mother of another girl. She asked how I was doing, so I was honest. She said she knew all about anxiety and that she had been taking clonaxepam for 4 years. She said prozac was okay, but paxil made things worse. Another mother, said she had been on prozac for 8 years. So it was really neat that these women, opened up and told me what worked for them and that they knew what I was talking about.
I don't feel shame about getting sick, it is just something that happens. I have had to deal with these bouts since I was a kid. I have suffered no abuse of any type, so whatever goes wrong, just goes wrong. I think mostly my problem stems from having hemochromatosis, oh well.
I am an intelligent, compassionate, sympathetic and decent human, who sometimes gets mentally ill. So what!!!! There are worse things. What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger. I think depression, makes us better human beings. It means we feel to much, which is better than being numb.
poster:Jaynee
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