Posted by ROO on October 18, 2002, at 14:52:34
In reply to Re: depakote weight gain, boredom, etc--Ted » ROO, posted by Ted on October 18, 2002, at 13:57:38
> How do you get over them? I even mentioned it
to my therapist and she didn't seem to consider
it a problem.I don't know if you ever get over them, you just learn how
to manage them...I think for me, I just figured out "healthier" ways
to manage my boredom...ways that were more gratifying to me...and I became
kind of "bored" with overeating...it didn't really do it for me anymore.
Sometimes I still do it, sure, but not nearly to the extent that I used to
binge eat....and I used to have bullemia and the whole nine yards.I think for me, it was a big metaphor...there was a big void in me I was trying
to fill...and it became painfully obvious that food wasn't going to do it...so I began
searching for things that would come closer to the mark...painting, hiking....stuff that
"fed my soul" more...not to be too Oprah or anything, but hey, I am a girl.>
> Until I had my last *major* depressive episode,
in early 1985, I ate normally. For a week at the
start of that 1985 episode, I ate nothing and
lost 10 pounds. Ever since the end of that first
week, I have had difficulties with eating,
specifically overeating.That must be frustrating...having had a relatively normal past...
>
> I have bipolar, and until I went loopy in
May 1999, I got a reasonably large amount of
exercise and I was active and though not
particularly "thin", I wasn't particularly
overweight either.You had your first manic episode in 1999?
>
> After my hospitalization and medication in 1999
, I have had continual lethargy (not medical
-- I get tested regularly), lack of interest in
most everything, and ever more difficulty with
overeating. Boredom became a major issue. I
wonder if it is related to my bipolar mania being
gone through meds....So until 1999, you had a fair amount of energy and vigor, and after
that, you've felt pretty lethargic...wow...that's about 4 years of feeling
lethargic...what sorts of things have you tried to counteract the
lethargy? It must be awfully frustrating...."treated" for your illness...but
lethargic and care less about anything having been active and energic in the past...>
> I think so. I mentioned exactly that to both
my pdoc and my therapist and neither had a
comment.I don't think anyone knows how to deal with that one...they only
know how to deal with the suicidal tendencies...I know when I'm feeling
suicidal I only WISH I were feeling bored...but then when I'm feeling bored
it feels like a different kind of death.Sometimes I wonder how much of it is a SPIRITUAL problem...not in the
sense of religion or jesus or anything like that...but the other day I
was thinking it had been forever since I'd done anything half way adventurous.
But then you just went on a camping trip the other day, so maybe it's not that
for you...were you bored on the camping trip?She is
taking meds and it helps her (ok, us) lots, but
maybe I need more from her.Depression sure is hard on relationships. Scares me.
>
> *However* last night I looked in the junk food cupboard
and decided to clean out my truck from the
camping trip instead. SO, I managed something
productive while managing not to do any extra
eating. If only I could do that more often.....Sometimes I've wondered if I could just FORCE myself to
do certain things if it would make me feel a lot better...things
like you just mentioned...just little things like that can make
you feel more alive...like a normal human being...
>
>
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