Posted by .tabitha. on August 14, 2002, at 2:02:55
In reply to Re: it's not so much the bread as...., posted by Gabbi on August 13, 2002, at 21:09:26
I agree, some people manage to seem attractive despite a little (or a lot) of fat. Maybe that's not quite what you meant, but I'm going off on a fat acceptance tangent here anyway.
I've pretty much been a lifetime dieter, as was my mom. I used to hate how she wouldn't ever even indulge in a single peice of candy. In my 20s I thought I had found the answer-- I could eat what I wanted if I exercised excessively. I lost tons of weight, and didn't realize how anorexic I looked. Nowadays they call that exercise bulimia. I've also gone on various unbalanced deprivation diets (no sugar, no carbs, vegan, no dairy/soy/corn/wheat/sugar). It's either that, or else I just give up and eat whatever I want (lots of sugar and junk food). Just can't seem to find that middle ground.
A few years back, after attending a weeklong festival where there was a lot of nudity, I realized that people of normal weight looked fine. My whole history of fat-hate just seemed wrong. I vowed to never diet again. I tried, but as the pounds crept on, I just couldn't hack it. My extra weight all goes in the middle, destroying what little figure I have to begin with. My face gets jowly looking. I feel sexless and middle-aged. I get depressed. I just can't accept much fat, on me anyway.
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