Posted by Simcha on July 27, 2002, at 12:58:27
In reply to Re: diet/exercise tips for anti-depressant users--, posted by mscrane on July 24, 2002, at 9:32:36
I would like to interject with something that no one seems to mention here.
We have a "fix it" culture. We are also obsessed with excercise and dieting. Food is a definite obsession for me. I have been addicted to excercise and schemes of nutrition before.
I used to weigh 200 lbs. before anti-depressants. I was always a big guy. I have a barrel chest and large shoulders. Even though I'm a white guy (mostly) I have a big butt. (even when I was at my allegedly "ideal" weight)
Now I weigh 228 lbs. I've seemed to have stabilized at this size. I'm a bit chunky at this weight. I carry it well. In fact most people think I weigh much less because I have the frame that can carry weight well.
I have gone from a 32 inch waist to a 36 inch waist. I'm not interested in gaining more. I did go on an exercise routine when I lived in Iowa. All I did was gain muscle mass and the fat stayed put.
I just moved to California a month ago. I'm trying to get back into an exercise routine. I'm trying to avoid the inculturated (is that a word? lol) shame of not having exercised very much since I've been in California.
I've learned that acceptance of my size is most valuable in dealing with the anti-depressant weight gain. I've learned to accept my body the way it is. I've bought larger clothing. I've just decided that this is not something that is going to ruin my serenity. (And I have OCD!!!!!)
It's not that I've given up and that I have allowed myself to go fat. I'm just more accepting of my appearance in the mirror and I'm more loving toward myself. For now, while I'm taking Celexa, Wellbutrin, and Klonipin I've come to accept that I will not be 200 lbs. for a while no matter how hard I exercise.
This takes so much pressure off of me and I am free to do other things in my life. I'm also free to obsess about other things now... ;-) LOL
Take Care,
Simcha
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