Posted by mist on April 25, 2002, at 23:49:39
In reply to falling apart... i dont know what to do..., posted by kid_A on April 25, 2002, at 11:25:36
I don't know what to say that will help so I will just say that I think you're a very talented poet. You're the real thing. What that has to do with how you're feeling—nothing—but it's still worth saying.
Your poem for sar (Southern Comfort) made me cry. I am so, so sorry about your loss, the loss of a beautiful person who meant so much to you. I don't know what your relationship was but just from reading your posts and hers I can see why there was a connection. Not anything I can name, just something.
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> fact one: i dont deal with loss very well... all other facts rescinded... i cant eat, i cant sleep, i wake up if im lucky at 6:00am, tossing and turning, on the worst nights i cant sleep at all, hungry and depressed, mind racing with thoughts... i feel like im going crazy, when i seem like im getting better something touches me, a memory, a reminder, and im gone again... i feel locked in stasis with meds that do nothing, the meds that seem to work for me, the anxiolytics they want to drop... i feel like i want to disappear, i feel like i want to run away, i feel like clawing my eyes out, i wish i could have been closer to ground zero, i wish i could have done something, i wish that this was all a dream... i wish i wish i wish...
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